life in the darkness

Wednesday’s win was a bitter sweet moment. I was so happy that I finally won in the manx Music festival. A joint win, but never the less, it was a win. The adjudicator’s comments made me even happier. Saying he heard tones of Callas in my voice, made me very happy. An opera singer who I look up too. We both have a lot in common. I have wanted to become professional since I was younger. Every career opportunity i tried to go for meant doors slamming in my face. Either Insurance or the lazy employers not wanting to make adjustments. I approached music conservatoires in Hereford, RNCB, asking them what provisions they would provide for someone who is totally blind to study music. The RCM, Royal college of Music and Guild hall school of music and drama were the most enthusiastic. My dream was to go there and study. To eventually sing at opera houses like La Scala. The met and Covent Garden. I still have that dream today. If only someone would hear my voice, notice me. Interview me on Classic fm or radio 3, or both. My Nan’s dream is seeing me become a professional singer. She is not well at the moment so the win was a bitter sweet moment. A high followed by a bitter blow, but I will not let that stop me. I will keep trying. Trying to reach my goal. Singing at the Met and other opera houses.