life in the darkness

Yesterday, I ended up crying due to the tachy. I don’t normally, but yesterday, I’d had enough! My heart has been dropping into the 40s while asleep, and going up to 147, just while getting dressed. It appears that the verapamil I’ve been on for about 6 years, is not helping! I’ve asked to speak to cardiology and have my appointment on 21st expedited! I would like an EPStudy, electrophysiological study of my heart, to see if there are any extra pathways that should not be there, but because I feel very frustrated, I feel like asking them to just ablate and pace! I hate the chest pain, the tachycardias, the bradycardias! I just hate it!! They’re making me shaky, I’m getting ectopics, and struggling! I can’t even walk down a corridor without getting breathless! It keeps going in and out of tachycardia! I hate this! I really do.