life in the darkness

Thank you to the person named antibullying society on my blog for coming forward and telling me who is behind this iom side of trolling. Yet they’re still saying I’m not leaving them alone? I’ve not spoken to them yesterday or the day before. Now I’m going to tell you something which will shock you all. About 2021/22 I think it was. One of the trolls coersed people into making fake accounts and threatened them not to tell anyone. A few days after that, a whole thing blew up. In which one of them decided to make one of the characters committ suicide, or attempt too! Then blame me for it. This made the person who they coersed very uncomfortable which I myself would be. While they left the situation and tried to do something about it, the trolls kept on with their story. I however, thought it was all real and tried to list suicide spots on the iom where they could have gone. Later, the trolls started saying I’d driven someone to the edge etc, when nothing of the sort had happened. They are still trying to use this lie against me even now. I am so proud of the people who they coersed. I’m so proud of them for getting out of their clutches! And proud to be friends with them both again! That’s as far as these trolls on iom and UK will go to try and destroy my life! They’ve gone as far as trying to report me for fraud which didn’t work. They’ve discussed a harassment pin I got on social media, which they are not allowed to discuss. They have also tried to stop me getting employment and bragged about it. Made lies up saying I’d retended to work for CAMHS and threatened to get their daughter’s information and post it. This is a total fabricated lie. I would never do that. I’ve never worked for CAMHS. I’ve never even spoken to this person about their daughter, neither did I know of their mh conditions. This is the lenths they will go. Why am I bringing this up? I’m bringing it up incase they come to you. Incase they try to coerse you into believing their lies with manipulated so-called evidence. I’ve many screenshots from back in 2016 where this all started. Where they recruited more to join their little army. Where one erson likes to insist I harassed them, when they whatsapped me under a fake name from their own mobile phone. Then went round telling their friends I was the bully. Then went round saying they can’t get involved in things because of legal action, when they did just yesterday. This is again, what people do. It gets you down. It is easier said than done to block them, as they come back with fake accounts and names, then cry victim when they’re reported for being fake. I’ve had this for 6 years now. Yes, some of it was my fault. I was quite nasty a few years ago. My own mental health went into decline and I didn’t realise. Until someone managed to make me see it was declining in lockdown. And thank you to them. Since then, I’m etting getting a lot better. Now for the reasons behind my multiple messages to people. As they’ve used that one against me as well!
I don’t know why I message people a lot, but my guess is that I try to make sure no one leaves me. After 6 years of people being manipulated, coersed, Screenshots being posted in public everywhere, people going round making fake accounts in my name, then posting stuff and posting screenshots of it, to try and cause trouble, I guess I’m just making sure people don’t leave me. Making sure they don’t get manipulated or think I’ve said stuff when I haven’t. As they don’t yet know me and I want them to get to know the real me. Not the picture they’re painting online. If you’re friends with me and I value you as a friend, you’re stuck with me. If we have each other’s numbers etc, you’re a friend of mine! I’ll never walk away from you and I hope not likewise. If you’re a busy person, at least please just let me know you’re still around, that you’re okay, and that we’re okay as friends still. I have the hidden anxiety that people are trying to cause trouble. Are they watching me? Yes, most likely they are. Are they physically following me everywhere? Well, who would know. I wouldn’t, but at times, I have my suspicians. Are they trying to destroy every friendship I make? Yes, Again I suspect that highly. They’ll be going round telling people to avoid me at all costs and show them stuff. So there you are. It’s all here for you. They say I’m making up my medical conditions as well. I’ve shown medical letters from consultants proving my diagnoses. Is that enough for you? It’s got to the point I say sorry for bothering the GP now. But yes, it’s easy to say ignore, block, but it’s not that easy. Still, I carry on. I have my singing, my university course. My true friends. The ones who are getting to know me. Please can we try to get to know each other more, both online and offline. You will see who I am in person. And see that I’m not the person they paint me as. And to the people who are going through the trolls targetting them right now? I feel your pain! I get it. You know where I am. It doesn’t elp with pots etc. Anyway, I hope you all have a good night and a good day tomorrow. 💜🌹☺️🙏🤗