life in the darkness

In the first few weeks of this year, I have learned one thing, that my singing is probably going to be part of my focus in life. I enjoy singing, not for money, but to make people happy. I am a huge fan of Josh groban, who I discovered back in 2007. His voice is very warm and I get the feeling he is a very sincere person. Talking of things like that, me and my friend of whom I’ve known for 12 plus years are talking and our friendship is growing strongger. Thanks be to God. I think as blind people, it is hard when it comes to Love. I will admit on here, I have never actually been with anyone, but I have had feelings for people. Well, I think they were. Although I suppose you can’t tell really. Whether it’s love, or you just feel very attached. It’s rather strange. I went with someone at RNC, but when they tried to give me hugs, or hold my hand, I was not happy. I wanted to be the one to give the hugs and things. Not the other way round. But there you are. I guess that’s why I’m very uncomfortable with reading our current reading material in my degree! It makes for very disturbing and uncomfortable reading! Not for the faint hearted either! I am hopefully going to get help from an agency called Ethical clarity to help me grow in terms of my singing and website development, as I would like to make it as accessible as possible to those who visit. I thank you for visiting this little blog part of it anyway and hope, eventually that I can label all the audio clips I have on here. You will notice in each one, how my voice is changing. For the better. The cold is not helping my Asthma though. I do love the cold weather though. The snow like a white blanket of cotton wool falling from the sky. The freezing fog like Glitter. The ice like a sheet on the ground that glistens. Rather like sparkling lights. The cold frigid air when you walk outside. I remember that from my school days too! The wintery landscape as you’d walk from one side of the building to the other which involved walking outside. The hailstones falling from the sky like small peas. i would be hoping and praying I could have a day off, so I didn’t have to put up with my support worker who wasn’t very kind! I had constant anxieties over her mood every day and how the day would turn out. The one thing that helped, was my music, and my rosary beads I carried everywhere. I would wear them round my neck. I still do when I perform in concerts. i don’t travel without a set of beads either in my bag or round my neck. They have such comfort, knowing that you are okay. I do get nervous as I’ve said in other posts. Although this year, I will be extra nervous when it comes to performing in the Guild! I’ve not sung for 5 years there or there abouts I’m singing two technically challenging pieces. As well as the song written by Lara Fabian and sung by her and covered by Josh Groban. This will be a huge honour to sing! I ope I will sometime, get to meet him! It would be a dream come true!