My holiday was very enjoyable. I went to Lincoln cathedral, which was extremely big and very old. The floor was almost cobbled at times and you could tell it was old by the smell. It was a typical old church smell. The musty nice kind of smell, of the old wooden floors and walls. Unfortunately the organ was not playing, but that didn’t matter. We lit a candle for the Queen, who sadly passed the day we were travelling down to Sleaford. It was about 6:30 PM that we received the announcement via the television and our phones’, or rather, those who had news apps on them. I had kept an eye on the updates as we were travelling. It was very unexpected but I knew she was going to pass eventually. She was 96, only 4 years younger than her husband, the Duke of Edinborough. Prince Philip. each day me and Lynn’s mum went to different places, a walk round the little park beside the River, which was very low, due to drought.
Other days, we went into Lincoln itself and drove past an RAF base, where typhoons were flying past. The sound was something else. You could hear the burners on them as they flew bye. A completely different sound to that of the red arrows. After listening to that for a few minutes, we went back home. Sadly, Lynn’s mental health was not that great so I spent more time with her mum than I did Lynn. When she was able to join me, we had an absolute ball! We were singing, playing the piano, doing puzzles and trying to complete our Towers of Hanoi. A puzzle that requires you to put all the different sized disks on top of each other, but without putting the larger ones on the top of the smaller ones and without moving any large ones off the middle pole except when moving the smaller ones across. Sounds simple, right? Far from it. They use it in neurological testing as well. I will attach a video of me and Lynn singing to this post. I hope you enjoy it.
After I got home, I started to read my’ Materials for this year’s OU study. Forensic psychology. How people are treated when they are in prison where therapy is concerned. Where to break confidentiality and when not too. We will also be learning about abuse in all forms. That will be quite uncomfortable for me, but you have to learn about uncomfortable things in order to be a psychologist yourself. You yourself have to go through getting rid of past trauma in order for you to help others with the same thing. My philosophy is this. In order to move forward and past trauma, you must purge it. Get rid of it in the therapy room. It will be horrible. Uncomfortable, scary and you will cry. You may even scream and lash out at things. A cushion is a handy tool for taking your anger out on it. However, you have to exercise caution if the person is a risk to themselves. Therefore; one can’t use that form of releasing inner emotions, encase they try to do something with it. But yes. It won’t be an easy thing. But in order to move on, it must be done! You cannot let past trauma, what ever it may be, mental trauma that is, rule you. You have to let it go. Start a new life, a new way forward. Do not allow the trauma to rule you or beat you down! You are a survivor and you can do that. You will come through the other side. And when experiences make you think of the traumatic event, you must tell yourself, I’m not there. I’m not in that moment of my life anymore. That’s gone. I’m in a better and different place. I can handle this. No-matter what it throws at me. I will come through it.
On another note, In my latest acoustic shooting league, I have gained a Bronze meddle. My 4th one now since I first started shooting. I have come a long way over the past 2 or 3 years and I am very proud of myself. Thank you to the people who have helped me along the way and spurred me on. Thank you very much.
life in the darkness 