Good afternoon on a cold stormy sunday afternoon. The other day, I plucked up the courage and emailed a local recording studio, to ask about the possibility of releasing a small EP of some kind. I’m leeping into the unknown as I have never done this before, but it’s time my voice got heard. You can find little clips of me singing across on my website where you will find this post, but press on the link that is called: “Singing.” A few years ago, I lost my confidence completely and stopped singing. My voice was silent. I had sung for many years, both in concerts and at home, or in competitions. Something, though, was stopping me. People mocking it, like they used to do in secondary school. I’d sung on a small album that our school had made. It had good reviews, and the song went round most peoples’ IPods, however, some people decided to mock me. They would come up and say: “Ergh! My ears are bleeding.” Would pretend to cut my hair with fake scissors. My dream back then, was of becoming a singer, and singingwith an orchestra. To this day, I still have that dream. To sing anything with an orchestra. I just hope someone from the IOMSO reads this. I so wish I could sing something with them. It would be a dream to record that. Please God make that happen!
Talking of God: It was in Lourdes, when one day, someone approached me and asked me to sing. I at first, refused saying that people would not like it, because they were younger than me and perhaps would not take to my voice. He was not letting me get out of it and eventually, I gave in. But… What to sing? I just sung the first song that came to my mind and one that the group would know. You’ll Never Walk alone! Yep, #YNWA. The Liverpool Anthem! I got ready to sing. Everyones’ ears were on me. Heart starting to speed up, but with the normal response to adrenaline, I began singing. What happened afterwards, was a total surprise. The whole room appauded and someone asked me to sing something else. O Mio Babbino Caro: Oh My beloved Father, by Puccini. Surprised, I sung the small aria and yet again, people applauded. Videos had been taken and they went round peoples’ phones like wild fire! Later, it was posted on the Lourdes Music group Twitter page. I was delighted. Could this be the beginning of my small dream of a singing career? Again? Who knows. Lourdes after all, came with miracles. That was one of them.
Now, though, this time is different. This is a professional style recording ifit goes ahead. I must prepare properly for it. Rehearse, Rehearse and rehearse, if the answer is yes! If this is worthy of submitting to radio stations etc I must practise hard. I’m praying that this goes ahead! Thank you to my lovely friend. Rachel! You are brilliant!
life in the darkness 